love? yeah, whatever.

hello, i'm here again and you should know i have something bad to share again huh my lovely bloggie.

since when my blog has become a place to throw all my tantrum instead of sharing nice stuffs/things i met in NZ to you guys?

okay, i don't even know who's still following my blog tho.

PATHETIC.

sometimes i don't really understand why should i have a bf?

and why does he need a gf?

what for?

since that you can do everything with your friends

share everything with them

and i blame you for not having lunch/hanging out with me (as you promised yesterday)

ended up you said it's my fault caused i did not wake up that early and go out with you instead

i thought that you promised me that you will wake me up when you get home and we will hang out in the town together?

and now, it's my fault and you told me i have to blame myself.

okay fine.

i'm PATHETIC.

when i am throwing tantrum to you/mad at you for no reason or maybe for a reason that i want you to realize it yourself

i thought you would understand and maybe just..pacify me back or things like that?

i thought that's what a bf should do.

but you just mad at me back and said you hate me doing this?

you said you angry because of me angry?

because of me throwing tantrum at you?

okay, its's my fault again in the end.

PATHETIC.

should i blame myself for not understanding you well before i started this relationship?

i hate that you always can't keep your promises and most of the time it's because of your friends

i really do.

and i hope you see this.